One Foot In and One Foot Out

I probably thought it possible
Rather easy for me to do
To live a life of probability
Not choosing a side fully true

Of God, of Mammon, of many things
I didn't think it a grave sin
Just to live a life I thought best
Not allowing my life to begin

For I was stuck, It may be despair
Not understanding my purpose
Not exactly happy, not exactly depressed
This twilight seems not just

Yet still I continued onward
Thinking I'd find a truer path
I let myself taste good and bad
Thinking not of God's eternal wrath

Then grief, pain and agony came
Lost in my current blinded state
A decision needed to be made
And enter into the right gate

Truth won't come to those that balance
The gospel, sin, faith and doubt
And continue to live a confused life
With one foot in, and one foot out

This Pit I've Sown

It's a day to cheer

No longer fear

Of where your life has led

To be free of pain

So much to gain

Rediscover the life you fled

Your feet you found

Stuck in the ground

Not wanting to go on

For the path you had

Slowly turned bad

The good life now is gone

Yet Christ was there

With a sincere prayer

To help you out that pit

Though hands your own

Dug this pit you've sown

The path back He always lit

For now you've seen

On who to lean

To once again feel free

Christ is always here

Forgiveness near

It's now time to be happy

It Mattereth Not

Your rants and disbelief have made me think

But in the end made my heart sink

As I know the truth to be so clear

Though it’s hard for you to feel He’s near

But still I wish to spread the grace

And make our bond a safe place

So when the eternities it is you fear

I hope towards light you’ll want to veer

For in the end we’ll stand side by side

Both in our sins, good works and pride

When our Savior will take us in his care

And all our doubts will no longer snare

So my dear brother this is my plea

For your blinded eyes to truly see

That God is good, and God is true

And no matter what will always love you!

Silence

You can whistle while you work

Put your shoulder down without a shirk

And sing the song that gets you through the day

Yet the stubborn vice whose verse

Has damned my way which is cursed

And left me all alone in disarray

For no sweet tune seems to find

Its path to my soul or mind

And has left me with nothing more to hear

I would love to know your song

In hope's that soon I will belong

It's the lonely silence I'll sadly always fear

Enter Into The Mundane

You've waited to see what light would come

Pushed, struggled, awaited and sung

That all you’ve ever sought was near

But found a forlorn bareness here

A stagnant grasp that blurs your eyes

A sickness that infests the now

To then leave you questioning how

The dull day decides your demise

And life seems to ignore your cries

Yet still it doesn’t stop your stride

To stand up strong and keep your pride

And face each day with routine new

Your tested faith and hope holds true

But it matters not how tall you stand

Since all the days still feel the same

Your desire unmet, this is your bane

A grey, old, mundane path so bland

This course you’ll never understand

Ignorance

Ignorance
Alone - In it's cold room
Shuts enlightenment out
It's destiny - A blissful tomb

A Greater Purpose

We all have want for something great

To feel down deep it’s not too late

That good will come of routine blah

Escape our winter, start to thaw

And find the spring that brings us light

Purpose that helps us know what’s right

Though chains of plain, and chains of grief

Hold us back from desired relief

We can’t see the dark steps ahead

We fear the course, begin to dread

Our faith is weak, love’s hard to find

When nothings felt in heart and mind

What is there to encourage on

To help us move into the dawn

But that in which we must have trust

And deem our happiness a must

For joy will bring our promised land

Once we reject depressions hand

Ray LaMontagne - Empty

Well I looked my demons in the eyes
Laid bare my chest said do your best destroy me
See I've been to hell and back so many times
I must admit you kinda bore me

There's a lot of things that can kill a man
There's a lot of ways to die
Yes and some already dead that walk beside me
There's a lot of things I don't understand
Why so many people lie
Well it's the hurt I hide that fuels the fire inside me

Will I always feel this way
So empty, so estranged

Listen to the whole song here: 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rIUSikXex5w