Sorry

Roses are red
Violets are blue
Sorry I haven't posted in a while
But I am sure you'll get over it

Stand-fast

Sometimes we feel backed up in a corner
Beat up, ignored, made fun of and more
Or even alone we may often times feel
And wonder why we're in this lonely ordeal
Then maybe progression you think you may see
But pushed down to shame, and again feel empty
Your strength is tried, your weakness is shown
While no hand seems near as you stand all alone
The struggle is hard, you may lose your might
Cause everything good seems far out of sight
Pleading for help in hopes someone will hear
Yet done so in shame for no answer you fear
Your faith seems to grasp on your very last string
Not understanding what this trial will bring
But faith and persistence will always be right
When do so in virtue, you soon will see light
So stand-fast and pray to Him who you know
For He's always there and helping you grow

Remember

Let us not forget the way

That brought us to our knees

When we were in our sorrows

And begged our Savior please

And when His love filled our life

To lighten our heavy load

It also brought us needed peace

And cured that which was woe'd

Then when our aches and troubles

seem to bother us no more

It's then we feel the love of Christ

Of which we've known before

So whether times are hard or not

Remember what you've felt

The Savior's help you pleaded for

all those lonely nights you knelt 

Emotionally Dead

As I sit here restlessly

Why must I take life seriously

For life just seems to fade away

My heart is cold just like my bed

I find myself emotionally dead

Doesn't seem to matter how much I pray

Dreams are turned to nightmares

Images of you, my heart it bares

The loneliness of you no longer by my side

I long for you, that's all I know

Even though you hurt me long ago

Only heaven knows of how much I've cried

Trying to think of all the bad

To rid these feelings of being sad

Yet you still crowd my every thought

How is it you still bring me peace

When it's you I should want the very least

Time to throw out what was taught

No way should I make a move

I couldn't bare once more to lose

The girl, the girl who has my heart

I should say 'had,' but it's not true

No more lies, for I am through

Doesn't matter since we'll always be apart

It's not fair for me, of the next one

That I will love and bear my son

The part of me I won't ever get back

So back to bed to think of you

And remember how you called me Boo

My better half is exactly what I lack

Live the GOOD Life

Our short lives just keep getting shorter and shorter with each day we live. How did we do today? Are we closer to God or hell because of the choices we made? Unfortunately, hell days exists. However, thankfully, our hell days may be forgiven us with enough faith to believe the great miracle of forgiveness and be cleansed. That when the final night comes we can say, "It was a good day Heavenly Father. A good day."

I have never quoted anyone else on my blog.

Today, will be that day.

C.S. Lewis wrote the following...

"In our present state you cannot understand eternity. You can understand a likeness of it if you say good and evil, when full-grown, become retrospective. All this earthly past will have been heaven to those who are saved. And all their life on earth will then be seen by the damned to have been hell."

"That is what mortals misunderstand. They say of some temporal suffering. No future bliss can make up for it, not knowing that heaven, once attained, will work backwards and turn even that agony into a glory. They say of some sinful pleasure, let me have but this and I will take the consequences. Little dreaming how damnation will spread back and back into their past and contaminate the pleasure of their sin."

"Both processes begin even before death. The good man's past begins to change so that his forgiven sins and remembered sorrows take on the quality of heaven, and the bad man's past already conforms to his badness and is filled only with dreariness."

"And that's why at the end of all things, when the sun rises here and the twilight turns to blackness down there, the blessed will say, 'We've never lived anywhere but in heaven.' And the lost will say, 'We were always in hell'...and both will be right."

Be good! Sin is sorrow and will never, EVER bring happiness. Our Savior has provided us a life to live as if we are in heaven! DO NOT PROCRASTINATE THE DAY OF YOUR REPENTANCE.

Resisting Right

How is it that we find ourselves so distant from the top

And find the courage to move on, yet then decide to drop

Once again upon the cold ground, no lower we can go

It seems a little easier here, yet here we cease to grow

Our friends above throw down the rope to help us in our climb

Yet we refuse, no help we need, by thinking there's still time

And if we stay in this despair our progression has found an end

Then we'll realize were all alone, this agony our only friend

We look above and see dim light and curse our current state

But we can only blame ourselves and hope it's not too late

On our knees we finally fall, for forgiveness we will plead

"I'm sorry, dear Lord, I’ve lost my way, it’s you I really need!"

The Wind of Change

How can one expect tomorrow to be anything like today? Searching for a routine or normalcy in your life is a blind hunt, for nothing stays the same…which is neither good nor bad. It just happens. So adapt we must. The better you are at adapting, the easier your life is. For if you try and resist the change you get stuck left behind longing for the past that no longer exists and become damned by faded emotions and memories. Yet, accept the change, while bringing your past with you, find your new path and carry on. God is my only constant that I can rely on; everything else around me is constantly changing, or soon will be. It is He who guides me through the dark night, and even the clear noon day. Where with Him I can accept life for what is…or what it will become. Fixing our past doesn’t mean going backwards!

THOMAS MARION HANKS JUNIOR

Yesterday my dear brother Tom and sister-in-law Talitha had a terrible tragedy in their lives, that has in turn affected all of us. Born as a stillborn, Thomas Marion Hanks Jr. was a healthy boy who just a few days before had his cord twisted and passed away with no pain as he slept. Many emotions have become of this, and it is very hard to deal with. Why, when there are so many horrible parents out there, are these two wonderful, loving and amazing parents left with such a horrible, painful tragedy? I read some words of comfort by the Prophet Joseph Smith which read:

"why is it that infants, innocent children, are taken away from us?...The Lord takes many away even in infancy, that they may escape the envy of man, and the sorrows and evils of this present; they were too pure, too lovely, to live on earth; therefore, if rightly considered, instead of mourning we have reason to rejoice as they are delivered from evil, and we shall soon have them again."

I know that little Tommy is with our Savior. I know that our Savior loves every one of us, and has reason and purpose for all that happens. As I held my little nephew in my arms, my eyes filled with tears, and my heart aching, I also felt the love of God. I was understanding and so grateful for the eternal plan of salvation that our Heavenly Father has prepared for us. In an attempt to help with any grieving (Tom and Talitha's, my own or any others) I wrote the following poem. I love my family so much, and am so lucky to have all of them in my life. God bless you Tom and Talitha. I pray for your peace and happiness. You were chosen to carry a special son. The title is "Thomas Marion Hanks Junior" which is only appropriate.

A turn like this one can never explain
The loss of something more than just life
Emptiness, filled with confusion and pain
May overcome us during this bitter strife.

Yet there were few who knew of this
And found that soon would be death’s kiss
Their purpose was for the Eternal good
Even though they’d be misunderstood.

THEY are those who now embrace
Our Heavenly Father and YOUR lovely son
For he is saved with pure love and grace
And the sacrifice of the Atoning One.

Together, in joy, they are once again
As He received Thomas with arms open
May we find ourselves with peace in heart
Because of His Love, WE’RE NEVER APART.

I LOVE YOU TOM JR., and look forward to the day we meet and embrace!!!! Look after us!