Rather easy for me to do
To live a life of probability
Not choosing a side fully true
Of God, of Mammon, of many things
I didn't think it a grave sin
Just to live a life I thought best
Not allowing my life to begin
For I was stuck, It may be despair
Not understanding my purpose
Not exactly happy, not exactly depressed
This twilight seems not just
Yet still I continued onward
Thinking I'd find a truer path
I let myself taste good and bad
Thinking not of God's eternal wrath
Then grief, pain and agony came
Lost in my current blinded state
A decision needed to be made
And enter into the right gate
Truth won't come to those that balance
The gospel, sin, faith and doubt
And continue to live a confused life
With one foot in, and one foot out
